lumen
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Crash and burn-- is music fading from my life?
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Oct 28 01:14 UTC 2000 |
Student teaching did NOT work out, so I am piecing together an
individual studies degree and wondering how the hell I am ever
going to have a job that might be music-related.
Right now, the instrument that tickles my fancy is one I am still a
beginner with.
For that matter, I'm not sure I can find any job that will fit an
introverted, intuitive, feeling, perceiving/judging person like me
who does better at exploring plethoras of possibilities and ideas
than actually making anything that can be tangible. In other words,
I feel like I am trapped in a technical world that cares only about
the bottom line, linear thinking, concrete solutions, and tangible
results.
I don't feel like the world needs my creative ideas because I can't
make it into something physical. I feel hopelessly philosophic.
So what the hell do I do now?
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orinoco
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response 2 of 9:
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Oct 29 17:12 UTC 2000 |
Sounds like there's two separate issues here. One's "oh my god, what do I
do for a living?", and one's "how is music going to fit in with my life?".
It could be that the two have separate answers. What about getting a job
that suits your feel for options and possibilities, and doing music (maybe
just as enthusiastically) "on the side"?
(Of course, this is my personal spin on the issue at the moment anyway, since
I've recently been deciding to keep music as a hobby and major in something
else. So basically, I'm telling you what I've been telling _me_, and, since
you're not me, YMMV.....)
(What instrument, btw? Are you still playing guitar, or are you on to
something else?)
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lumen
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response 3 of 9:
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Nov 8 18:20 UTC 2000 |
resp:1 What do the INFPs do? I took the Keirsey personality sorter a
while ago-- it describes this category as the Healers of the Idealist
section.
Get a load of what the Keirsey site said:
Portrait of the Healer (iNFp)
Copyrighted © 1996 Prometheus Nemesis Book Company.
Healer Idealists are abstract in thought and speech, cooperative in
striving for their ends, and informative and introverted in their
interpersonal relations. Healer present a seemingly tranquil, and
noticiably pleasant face to the world, and though to all
appearances they might seem reserved, and even shy, on the inside they
are anything but reserved, having a capacity for caring
not always found in other types. They care deeply-indeed,
passionately-about a few special persons or a favorite cause, and
their fervent aim is to bring peace and integrity to their loved ones
and the world.
Healers have a profound sense of idealism derived from a strong personal
morality, and they conceive of the world as an
ethical, honorable place. Indeed, to understand iNFps, we must
understand their idealism as almost boundless and selfless,
inspiring them to make extraordinary sacrifices for someone or something
they believe in. The iNFp is the Prince or Princess of
fairytale, the King's Champion or Defender of the Faith, like Sir
Galahad or Joan of Arc. Healers are found in only 1 percent of
the general population, although, at times, their idealism leaves them
feeling even more isolated from the rest of humanity.
Healers seek unity in their lives, unity of body and mind, emotions and
intellect, perhaps because they are likely to have a sense
of inner division threaded through their lives, which comes from their
often unhappy childhood. Healers live a fantasy-filled
childhood, which, unfortunately, is discouraged or even punished by many
parents. In a practical-minded family, required by
their parents to be sociable and industrious in concrete ways, and also
given down-to-earth siblings who conform to these
parental expectations, iNFps come to see themselves as ugly ducklings.
Other types usually shrug off parental expectations that
do not fit them, but not the iNFps. Wishing to please their parents and
siblings, but not knowing quite how to do it, they try to
hide their differences, believing they are bad to be so fanciful, so
unlike their more solid brothers and sisters. They wonder,
some of them for the rest of their lives, whether they are OK. They are
quite OK, just different from the rest of their
family-swans reared in a family of ducks. Even so, to realize and really
believe this is not easy for them. Deeply committed to
the positive and the good, yet taught to believe there is evil in them,
iNFps can come to develop a certain fascination with the
problem of good and evil, sacred and profane. Tutors are drawn toward
purity, but can become engrossed with the profane,
continuously on the lookout for the wickedness that lurks within them.
Then, when iNFps believe thay have yielded to an
impure temptation, they may be given to acts of self-sacrifice in
atonement. Others seldom detect this inner turmoil, however,
for the struggle between good and evil is within the iNFp, who does not
feel compelled to make the issue public.
Sorry for that long bit there; I felt I should post the excerpt
unabridged to make sure my point was made. Basically, the personality
type is a starry-eyed visionary, that is deeply passionate about a few
focused things. The pragmatic world is rarely kind to our
sensibilities.
resp:2 I'd heard that for quite a while, Dan, and it always bothered
me, especially when it came from my parents. I am considering the
notion and have begun to see myself in a few jobs. I do see that Scott
Helmke plays gigs as a moonlighting thing-- while his day job is in
computing.
I am still playing guitar. I'm getting better, gradually, but I can't
afford a teacher at the moment.
Anyway, there it is-- make of it what you will, and tell me if it gives
you more ideas.
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