valentines hell

Feb 10 21:05 UTC 1999

i detest this.   
absorbing life--
(for all its worth)
processing the pain,
just fall silent into the shadows...
eaten away by the stress of society,
now engulped by the bare bones of the earth..
nothing to show for yourself but a large stone and a few wilting 
         flowers from days gone by..
solitude and rejection just push--
                               and push
                                    and push...
UNTIL ITS ALL TO MUCH...
UNTIL YOU GIVE INTO THE PRESSURE EXERTED...
UNTIL YOU LOOSE IT ALL AND LET THEM CRY IN AWE THAT THEY COULD PUSH
          YOU THAT FAR.
leaving me red-eyed and alone...
so much pain,
a cut that never stopped bleeding.
five years...
five years to this day since i saw you for the last time.
its all my fault--
the more i attempted to make you feel better,
the deeper the blade sunk into your heart.
let me put away the past...
why do you haunt me so..

response 2 of 25:

Feb 11 00:25 UTC 1999

joe... ENGUPLED ENGUPLED ENGUPLED ENGUPLED ENGUPLED   ENGUPLED!!!! take 
that you feindish profectionsist.. if it wasn't a word, i don't think 
i'd use it!!!

besides.. i'm just a little girly-girl.. i romp through the kiddie 
section of barns n nobles.. i can write my own english if i do so feel 
like it..