toww
|
|
Goodbye
| 
Aug 29 15:58 UTC 2000 |
Now that you have gone away
I think of you and my eyes get moist
Why couldn't I have held on
Why did I let you go
You went away without making a sound
You did not even say goodbye
I kept thinking you would comback
because you had never gone this way before
Your thoughts kept coming
and I couldn't sleep
I started to cry
only to be stopped by the thought
that maybe you are still nearby
I would give you a call
and you would comeback running
I would hold you
not let you go this time
I had promised not to call you out loud
lest somebody heard
So I whispered your name incessantly
hoping that you would hear
But you never heard my heart's cry
however much I tried
I saw you oneday on the way
and wanted to wave
but again I remembered my promise
and stopped, standing where I was
just waiting for you to see me
but I was hoping against hope
my mind whispered to me
that you are looking for a fresh start
and won't comeback again
but I shut it up...
how could I hear such a thing!
So today when I saw you again
I could not stop from asking you why?
And you paused and
gave a reply
a reply I had told you, I feared
My heart stopped
and I could not even cry
So I hurriedly said goodbye
and even you had to go
But in this short tryst with destiny
I saw a feeling of sadness in your eyes
You were sympathising
But I wasn't going to show you my emotions this time
And I wished you the best for your new start
I hope you will always be happy
It was too much to ask of you!
But I do have a right to cry
and I cried the whole night
I cried and I prayed to God
to take away the pain
and then cried again
I had felt your pain
and made them my own
and I had cried when you cried
hoping that just maybe you would smile
and only thing I wanted for you was happinness
I never had any right to ask you to stay
So i wish that maybe this time
pain wouldn't touch you
but please allow me to feel sad and cry!
|