Grex Synthesis Conference

Item 132: Love and Death Across a Chasm (very, very long)

Entered by mta on Wed Sep 30 03:10:35 1998:

48 new of 48 responses total.


#1 of 48 by kami on Wed Sep 30 05:42:01 1998:

Thanks for posting this article.  Hope the ritual is satisfying and *right*.


#2 of 48 by mta on Wed Sep 30 12:44:06 1998:

Thanks, Kami!  A lot.

To everyone, I'm sorry to post something so long but it seemed worth sharing
since many (most?) of us will face that "across the chasm" thing at one time
or another to one degree or another.


#3 of 48 by bjorn on Wed Sep 30 14:45:48 1998:

Your statement about seperation of faith made me think of when my Mjolnir
pendant broke while I was working on July 3rd of this year.  When I realized
that the pendant was missing from the chain, I felt not only the break in the
chain but a break in something spiritual.  When I found where the pendant part
of the necklace was, I noticed it was broken right on the ring that goes
around the chain, allowing it to dangle.  One of the times I went to the
bathroom that night, I asked my gods what I had done to offend them because
I had felt a spiritual rupture as well as lonliness and my theory about the
pointlessness of everything.

My faith is still weak, but it is coming back.  However, since I am surrounded
by Islam at work, my faith is kept suppressed.  Last night, however, I came
to the conclusion that the building I work in is devoring my soul.  I also
remembered that I should fight to keep my faith, as my experience in Malaysia
left a scar on my soul that will never completely heal.  I do think, however,
that part of Joanna's possession of me on a voluntary basis on my part helped
to heal my soul - much as her positive energy was painful to me the day of
her funeral, it made me feel better the next.

Still, in my state of weak faith, I continue to long for death (to be reuinted
with Joanna, mostly), but am afraid, because I think my very soul is being
weakend by the forces of the building where I work, as well as the probability
of me being the only pagan who works there.


#4 of 48 by jmm on Fri Oct 2 17:42:26 1998:

Thanks Misti for the chance to read your thoughts here. I found myself
drifting apart from my own son, and an angry message from him yesterday made
clear how little we have in common. I was quite ready to cancel a visit to
him in East Lansing on Sunday, but realized how tragic it would be to allow
this kind of thing to fester. We all need to reach out, as you did, to the
people we love, to forgive them their bad-tempered outbreaks, and to build
relationships, even when they seem most hopeless. 


#5 of 48 by jazz on Fri Oct 2 20:10:33 1998:

        Is this from an article, or original?  Either way, it's a wonderful
and thoughtful contribution to this conference.


#6 of 48 by mta on Sat Oct 3 02:11:01 1998:

I wrote it as an article to be published in a pagan newsletter ... but mostly
as a healing for myself.  Thanks, Jazz and John.


#7 of 48 by jazz on Sat Oct 3 17:16:56 1998:

        It's well-written, but you're doing a disservice to yourself not
submitting it to a more widely-read publication.


#8 of 48 by void on Sat Oct 3 22:30:14 1998:

   wow, misti.  wow.  thanks for so eloquently expressing a number of
things that have been bothering me since my mother died (although i
am still in the broom closet to my family).


#9 of 48 by mta on Sun Oct 4 20:59:42 1998:

Thanks, Jazz -- but I have no idea who'd want it beyond my own little circle.

Thanks, Dru, I'm glad i could say something meaningful to help you.  If you're
still in the broom closet to your family, your mother's death must have been
even harder for you to cope with.  Even though I couldn't talk about it
much,my mother and brothers did know.  (As did my father.)  


#10 of 48 by jazz on Mon Oct 5 11:59:20 1998:

        Misti, I wasn't thinking so much in terms of who'd want it, as who'd
benefit from reading it.


#11 of 48 by mta on Mon Oct 5 22:02:01 1998:

Any suggestions?  <grin>  Somehow I don't think Readers Digest would find a
use for it.  ;)

Seriously, I'd consider publishing if I had any idea who might run it.  I've
been surprised, but very, very gratified by the repsonse this essay has had
and I could stand a little more gratification this summer.  ;)



#12 of 48 by jazz on Tue Oct 6 12:18:01 1998:

        Hahahaha, yes, Reader's Digest.  I don't think they're ready.


#13 of 48 by brighn on Tue Oct 6 20:50:49 1998:

There are numerous Pagan publications which might consider running this. I'd
try Green Egg, just for kicks. 


#14 of 48 by mta on Tue Oct 6 22:32:12 1998:

Hmmm, there's an idea.  I haven't read them in years...


#15 of 48 by jazz on Fri Oct 9 15:26:34 1998:

        It's precisely non-Pagan publications that need this kind of writing.
Imagine what would happen the next time someone starts getting down on
someone because they're Irish-Celtic, and then they remember the article ...
okay, perhaps I'm being an idealist.


#16 of 48 by mta on Sat Oct 10 13:32:07 1998:

Getting it published by such a magazine would be extremely hard -- except
maybe Utne or Mother Jones -- but they tend to be looking for a different soet
of article.


#17 of 48 by brighn on Sun Oct 11 20:41:17 1998:

then submit it to Reader's Digest. if you *know* you're going to get a
rejection letter, it's not such a big deal, and you might accidentally get
an acceptance letter. what the hell =} 


#18 of 48 by kami on Tue Oct 13 03:41:59 1998:

Parabola. 
Actually, Brighn has a point there, about Reader's Digest...Goferit.


#19 of 48 by mta on Fri Oct 16 00:11:53 1998:

You folks are aware that Reader's Digest is owned by a religious (Christian)
group, aren't you???


#20 of 48 by bjorn on Fri Oct 16 00:41:53 1998:

Why don't I find that information surprising.


#21 of 48 by brighn on Fri Oct 16 04:49:20 1998:

#19> Point?


#22 of 48 by jazz on Fri Oct 16 15:11:49 1998:

        Didn't Christ preach tolerance for all? :)|


#23 of 48 by bjorn on Fri Oct 16 18:59:45 1998:

Unfortunately, the Bible not only contradicts itself from Old to New
testament, but also withing the same chapter.  Gensis, for example.


#24 of 48 by jazz on Sat Oct 17 13:31:18 1998:

        So it's acceptable to use inflammatory statements about Christianity,
but not others about your beliefs?  I see.


#25 of 48 by brighn on Sat Oct 17 13:35:08 1998:

That's not a flame. That's the truth, stated simply and not in a hostile
or condescending manner. 


#26 of 48 by bjorn on Sat Oct 17 13:51:25 1998:

Thank you, brighn.  (failing to resist the urge to use a gaming reference):
Jazz, you critically failed your interpretation/perception check.


#27 of 48 by jazz on Sat Oct 17 17:48:46 1998:

        There's a difference between "flaming" and "inflammatory", Paul -
I'm sure you're aware of it.

        #26:  That's so twittish that there's just no reply.

        See, that was flaming. :)


#28 of 48 by brighn on Sun Oct 18 02:06:19 1998:

You're right, John, there is. 
the comments that you made some time ago, that bjorn critized, were flames
and flame-baits.
the comment bjorn made was inflammatory.
happy?


#29 of 48 by mta on Sun Oct 18 17:10:02 1998:

re: resp:21 (which was re resp:19)

My point is that the suggestion was made that I submist my essay to Reader's
Digest ... and it's so thoroughly pagan in outlook that I can't see how I
could rewrite it keeping the point and still making it palatable to RD's
self-selected audience.


#30 of 48 by birdnoir on Mon Oct 19 03:17:29 1998:

        The Xtian bible was much better befor the Esclesiastical (spl?) Council
of 485 AD, this papal group re-wrote major parts of the original, writting
out such thing that they believed werr common knowledge, givens like
re-incarnation and the many god and goddess involved with Yahweh.


#31 of 48 by bjorn on Mon Oct 19 12:58:11 1998:

Your spelling looks right, birdnoir.


#32 of 48 by brighn on Mon Oct 19 13:56:51 1998:

29> I knew what your point was. I'd already said the article has nearly no
chance of being accepted by RD, but it's a strange strange world.


#33 of 48 by jazz on Mon Oct 19 15:34:12 1998:

        Ecclesiastical.  I think you're referring to the Deuteronical
revisions, which occured almost eight hundred years earlier, and consolidated
two different sets of polytheistic (but worshipping one diety, and with
notable theological differences) legends, those of the Baalist and the
Yahwist.  The Yahwists were the monotheistic-seeming ones, but both the
Baalists and the Yahwists worshipped the same diety, often known by a host
of different names.  The Yahwist disgust for the Baalist polytheism is evident
throughout the OT.

        Now the Council of Constantine was responsible for the removal of a
lot of apocrypha and for any hint of Gnostic bent in the NT.  Many Gnostics
did believe in reincarnation, and later incarnations of Gnosticism worshipped
the Goddess Sophia, or, Wisdom, if somewhat obliquely.  But that wasn't really
a part of the popular religion.


#34 of 48 by bjorn on Mon Oct 19 16:43:44 1998:

All very interesting points, but perhaps it is time that this particular
discussion move to its own item?


#35 of 48 by font on Tue Nov 24 02:42:36 1998:

Misti:
Your article is very beautiful.  It has brought new understanding to me.
<font wipes tears from her eyes> 
I wish I'd had more of a bridge to my father before he died...  The bridge
had fallen when I wasn't looking.  I'm still fighting with how to honor
him without making myself uncomfortable.
Have you considered sending this article to "The Sun"  ?


#36 of 48 by mta on Tue Nov 24 13:36:00 1998:

What's _The Sun_?


#37 of 48 by brighn on Tue Nov 24 19:38:50 1998:

It's a large yellow-white ball of fire that provides light for our planet,
Misti.


#38 of 48 by robh on Tue Nov 24 19:45:09 1998:

It's also an alternative religious mag.  Check the Utne Reader
for contact info, they usually have an ad and/or article in it.


#39 of 48 by mta on Wed Nov 25 18:08:35 1998:

OK, thanks Rob.


#40 of 48 by aldous on Tue Jun 15 18:16:08 1999:

Well, to update anyone who wants to know, this article was published in JULES-
The Journal of Unusual Learning and Esoteric Studies, Vol 4, No 2.  It was
an excellent piece, and quite a welcome submission.


#41 of 48 by kami on Tue Jun 15 18:34:13 1999:

Hey!  Life in this item, what do you know...

Anyone else have thoughts about life, death or relationships?


#42 of 48 by jazz on Tue Jun 15 19:48:50 1999:

        Good to see you're back, Kami.  If anyone can resuscitate this
conference, it'd be you!


#43 of 48 by aldous on Tue Jun 22 11:24:16 1999:

Given the conference topic, perhaps "reincarnate" would be a better term?


#44 of 48 by kami on Wed Jun 23 05:27:28 1999:

No, Jazz- I'm not that fond of my own words.  One person does not a
conversation make.  Generally...<g>
Cute, Aldous.
So- say something...


#45 of 48 by jazz on Wed Jun 23 14:59:41 1999:

        Don't dash my hopes, Kami. :)

        Allright ... I had an unsual experience recently wherein I was outside,
reading, for about an hour or so, and during that period of time, a
blue-and-gray dragonfly kept lighting upon me, and upon the book I was
reading.  It was bizaare.  I'd never had a dragonfly get that close, or stay
that close for that long.  Possibilities?


#46 of 48 by aldous on Wed Jun 23 16:52:49 1999:

Jazz-

Any number of possibilites come to mind, from the dragonfly deciding you
resembled a rock or branch (for whatever reason), to the state of mind your
reading material put you in being conduscive to attracting dragonflies
(especially blue-gray ones), and those are just two of the myriad
possibilities.

Would you know how you might have "smelled" at the time?  Perhaps you were
close enough to moss-covered structres that the moss "odor" of the
environment masked the scent that dragonflies get from most humans.  More
interesting still, it might have had a "human fetish". :-)

Hopefully, you weren't resembling a mosquito in any way.  It didn't
attempt to bite you, did it?

Perhaps this should go in a new item: invertabrate phenomena.

Aldous


#47 of 48 by jazz on Wed Jun 23 17:11:44 1999:

        No, I thought it curious, though, and wondered if any with a greater
knowledge of folklore might care to draw a parallel.  I'm not aware of any
examples of dragonflies in folklore, to be honest.


#48 of 48 by aldous on Wed Jun 23 20:20:27 1999:

Aside from their whimsical use as Victorian Faerie mounts, I've not
encountered them in folklore either, that I can swiftly recall.


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