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Grex Poetry Item 32: valentines hell [linked]
Entered by zoe on Wed Feb 10 21:05:06 UTC 1999:

i detest this.   
absorbing life--
(for all its worth)
processing the pain,
just fall silent into the shadows...
eaten away by the stress of society,
now engulped by the bare bones of the earth..
nothing to show for yourself but a large stone and a few wilting 
         flowers from days gone by..
solitude and rejection just push--
                               and push
                                    and push...
UNTIL ITS ALL TO MUCH...
UNTIL YOU GIVE INTO THE PRESSURE EXERTED...
UNTIL YOU LOOSE IT ALL AND LET THEM CRY IN AWE THAT THEY COULD PUSH
          YOU THAT FAR.
leaving me red-eyed and alone...
so much pain,
a cut that never stopped bleeding.
five years...
five years to this day since i saw you for the last time.
its all my fault--
the more i attempted to make you feel better,
the deeper the blade sunk into your heart.
let me put away the past...
why do you haunt me so..

25 responses total.



#1 of 25 by zoe on Wed Feb 10 21:10:45 1999:

pain... pain is our newfound friend..

i usually write of things that happen to me, spiritually or physically. 
this is no exception... 



#2 of 25 by zoe on Thu Feb 11 00:25:42 1999:

joe... ENGUPLED ENGUPLED ENGUPLED ENGUPLED ENGUPLED   ENGUPLED!!!! take 
that you feindish profectionsist.. if it wasn't a word, i don't think 
i'd use it!!!

besides.. i'm just a little girly-girl.. i romp through the kiddie 
section of barns n nobles.. i can write my own english if i do so feel 
like it..


#3 of 25 by lumen on Thu Feb 11 06:57:45 1999:

I like the word-- has different meanings than 'engulfed'.

Zowie, zoe, how do you manage to write such disturbing stuff?  I haven't been
near this angsty in years.


#4 of 25 by toking on Thu Feb 11 11:44:04 1999:

resp:2 have it yer way then, I'll just chock it up next to "brunsert"


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#5 of 25 by zoe on Thu Feb 11 21:58:17 1999:

people tell me its my age.. besides.. i feel as though if i face pain, 
i won't live in my head off of lies and pointless smiles.. i guess i'm 
just not a colorful person...

i like brunsert.. you have to admit thats a good one..


#6 of 25 by lumen on Fri Feb 12 19:49:07 1999:

Why..? how old are you, zoe?

I would suppose there is a difference in seeing things as they are and 
things as they can be.  The latter is often an inspiration for change.


#7 of 25 by zoe on Mon Feb 15 17:05:32 1999:

how old do you think i am??? i don't know if i told anyone if they'd 
beleive me... i know joe still has trouble.


#8 of 25 by toking on Wed Feb 17 19:36:33 1999:

(linked to the new poetry conf)


#9 of 25 by lumen on Thu Feb 18 00:29:18 1999:

I don't guess people's ages in cyberspace, Zoe-- there is too little 
evidence of age here besides stereotypes.  I'm frequently surprised at 
what I find.  I wouldn't know, because my guess could be totally off.


#10 of 25 by zoe on Fri Feb 19 02:25:04 1999:

lets just say that i'm far <extremely far> from my death bed and most 
people my age lack feeling, a realistic approach, and complete mind...

thats rather obvious...


#11 of 25 by bookworm on Mon Feb 22 07:37:06 1999:

teens or twenties, right?


#12 of 25 by brighn on Mon Feb 22 17:38:21 1999:

I'd say 13or 14, myself.


#13 of 25 by zoe on Mon Feb 22 19:54:39 1999:

gee thanks brighn... perhaps its my lack of maturity...


#14 of 25 by logansan on Mon Feb 22 20:32:43 1999:

        .... bare bones of the earth .... Zoe (if I may be so familiar, no
offense intented), but really you'r going to have to write something that I
dont like .... MAy I put up a shrine to your works :)


#15 of 25 by lumen on Mon Feb 22 22:56:37 1999:

Aww, just tell us how old you are..I won't hold it against you.


#16 of 25 by cloud on Tue Feb 23 02:39:07 1999:

you might as well.  They probably won't stop pestering untill you do.


#17 of 25 by brighn on Tue Feb 23 04:23:58 1999:

maybe I should just shut up =}


#18 of 25 by bookworm on Tue Feb 23 05:23:19 1999:

I know how old she is...

Old enough.


#19 of 25 by zoe on Tue Feb 23 20:02:24 1999:

what julie said...

response to 14:
all i do is put myself to paper.. i'll try though..


#20 of 25 by lumen on Wed Feb 24 00:22:12 1999:

oh, come on.  I like my perceptions to be changed.  I'm quite curious, 
but it's your prerogative.


#21 of 25 by zoe on Wed Feb 24 22:49:20 1999:

spiritually, i've been here atleast since the druids.. if not a little 
before..

physically... well.. i'm much younger... 


#22 of 25 by bookworm on Fri Feb 26 05:27:30 1999:

What's wrong with you people?

Don't you know it's impolite to ask a lady how old she is?



#23 of 25 by brighn on Fri Feb 26 16:17:37 1999:

It's not impolite when they bring the topic up... zoe said, "people tell me
its [that is, her ability to write angst] my age." I think it's fair to ask
what her age is, given that statement.

It's impolite to keep pressing the issue when somebody has declind to answer
a question, though, which she's done, so can we all move along now?


#24 of 25 by bookworm on Fri Feb 26 21:52:47 1999:

Right!


#25 of 25 by lumen on Mon Mar 1 03:45:12 1999:

yeah yeah

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