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Grex Poetry Item 174: a bit of truth inside this dream toking
Entered by bumble on Tue Feb 15 06:59:40 UTC 2000:

i....close my eyes and all of you keep seeping in, and i push and push 
and push until i think i've finally gotten away and all i can do is 
hope or dream that this time it really is the end. closed eyes and 
barred doors pretend to keep the nightmare out until at last i lay my 
head down at the feet of this false idol smiling up into her face and 
knowing that its all about to come crashing in falling in...collapsing. 
drawn inside this game i play the simple part of the simple fool 
shuffling my feet and mumbling my thoughts until the light comes 
seeping in again. tonight i dreamed the dream of the dancing dead, not 
those of former flesh and bone, but worse, those that stil wear their 
fleshy mantle like some badge of pride, those that insist on breathing, 
long after my prayers for them to stop. now the split frame swing of 
their rythmic pulse is blinding in my mind. suffocating in this silence 
until I am forced to scream "I FORGIVE I FORGIVE" and i bolt from my 
bead, dripping cold sweat like sweet release, still mumbling the sleep 
from my mind "i forgive i forgive". as those as after images fade from 
my mind i catch one final glimpse of a smiling face, a face i never 
wanted to see smile again. that smiling face at last grants me freedom 
from my self.

5 responses total.

#1 of 5 by orinoco on Wed Feb 16 00:07:37 2000:

Ah, but how can we be _sure_ you're the real toking?  

I kinda like the way you're talking about eyelids as if they were doors.  It's
a neat image, and it suits the way people tend to use eyelids.

#2 of 5 by bumble on Wed Feb 16 00:22:07 2000:

you know I'm me for lots of reasons...send an email to me and I can give
anyone all the proof they want, or just rewad what was above, and anyone that
has read this conf for a bit will know.

btw..last time i logged into my toking account was prolly early january,
apparently the account was used the 11h of feb or so, and some silly email
was sent to at least one person on grex from that account so if anyone got
one of those...try to ignore it.

#3 of 5 by arianna on Sun Feb 20 23:21:26 2000:

um, joe, you might wanna tell staff about that or something...

I like the linew with the "split frames dancing" -- neat.

#4 of 5 by bumble on Mon Feb 21 20:18:07 2000:

I did, and I"m waiting for a response from them....I think I included enough
info in the email to prove who I was but I guess I will see what happens

#5 of 5 by freedom on Thu Feb 24 03:45:19 2000:

This is intresting, and not that I am one to talk!! BUT..this seems kind of
cliched on your own work toking....not sure why i think this..it is good...but
hmm, do you know what I am saying.....like I got to a point in my writing when
all my poems had the same general way of using words...usually dark...lol..we
should all try to joke ourselves and write something happy!!!
All my happy poem attmepts ended up turning to sad ! go figure!
Anyway..this is cool, I guess I'd like to see you try something completley
opposite of your normal way...
but like I said, who am I to talk!!
 :)
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