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Grex > Enigma > #379: Lynne's "I aint got no baby" Diary. | |
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slynne
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response 105 of 160:
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Jan 11 17:03 UTC 2004 |
I find that to be the case a lot of the time. I mean I have written
about people in my real life online here and felt safe about it because
they dont read this and I dont expect anyone here knows them. But, I
still do it with the knowledge that what I write could be found by them
or repeated to them. It is hard to explain but I figure if that
happens, I'll explain what I was thinking when I wrote whatever I did.
Mostly, I am not so much concerned that they will be upset by what I
wrote. It is more that I have a way of embellishing stories or
remembering things inaccurately. I always get the general gist of
things but sometimes the details are wrong.
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anderyn
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response 106 of 160:
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Jan 11 17:11 UTC 2004 |
And I'm not terribly upset by most of what I've said online. Some of it was
written in moments of frustration and I wish I could scribble that, since it's
just stupid now. But oh well.
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slynne
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response 107 of 160:
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Jan 11 22:01 UTC 2004 |
A New Bed. A New Beginning?
Last Sunday, I had dinner at my aunt and uncle's house. They mentioned
that they were getting rid of a mattress and box spring and asked me if
I wanted it. I did. They were very nice and even lent their minivan to
me so I could move it. My parents were very nice and helped me with the
moving (it was heavier than I would have thought).
So now I have a "real bed". Well, it is really just a mattress and box
spring sitting on the floor but it is more conventional than the futon.
This bed, while very comfortable, is kind of weird. I have been
sleeping on a futon pretty much all the time since I was a teenager.
There were the waterbed years too but I never really liked that thing.
That kind of makes me laugh.
I guess because I have missed the whole get married and have kids
thing, there are areas of my life where I havent grown up. Ok, I
*still* have milk crate furniture which was all the rage when I was in
college. Oddly, the milk crate furniture itself doesnt bother me. It is
the idea that some part of me has resisted growing up. Of course, maybe
this is normal. In every important way I have matured and grown. Having
a milkcrate for a nightstand and a futon for a bed really doesnt mean
anything. Right?
So now I have a new bed. I feel that much more adult. I like it.
http://lynne.tblog.com/
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mary
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response 108 of 160:
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Jan 12 00:18 UTC 2004 |
Be careful, Lynne. Not too long after people get real beds
they start taking care of their weeds and overgrown yards.
Be afraid. ;-)
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slynne
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response 109 of 160:
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Jan 12 01:17 UTC 2004 |
uh-oh
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jaklumen
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response 110 of 160:
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Jan 12 01:24 UTC 2004 |
resp:101 Ok, I can go with that.
resp:105 Sure, even if they aren't likely to read it, better to plan
on the possibility they might.
resp:108 I didn't get either of those, but I think I am getting other
things. LOL This is reminding me of hand-me downs from the parents,
actually. They moved into a new house some months ago and some of the
things we got were some stuff for the bed. Headboard, footboard,
skirt, some nicer sheets, and comforter... I suppose it was an upgrade
of sorts. Also a long way from my single days five years back (I
think) when I had a mattress and box spring on the floor.
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slynne
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response 111 of 160:
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Jan 12 01:39 UTC 2004 |
Oh well, I guess I am counting the mattress and box spring on the floor
as "a real bed" ;)
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jaklumen
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response 112 of 160:
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Jan 12 12:35 UTC 2004 |
oh man apparently I have never lived!
hide a beds and futons have only been very temporary arrangements--
you know, staying with folks, in-laws, stuff like that.
You have got to describe this milk crate furniture a little more to me
because I am having trouble visualizing it.
Hmmm... this is totally off the subject some, but my sister in San
Jose and her husband figured out how to take my folks' old floor TV
and set an aquarium where the cathode tube was-- sealed the glass in
and everything. I've only seen a crappy picture and I'm dying to see
it one day in person.
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slynne
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response 113 of 160:
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Jan 12 13:48 UTC 2004 |
The milk crate furniture is just two milk crates with a board over them
to make a table of sorts.
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edina
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response 114 of 160:
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Jan 12 17:40 UTC 2004 |
I'd like to say that I live my life very much out in the open, but obviously
that isn't true. I filter a great deal of what I say, depending on the
situation. The best example is that I never mentioned I was having gastric
bypass until after I had had it . . .especially on m-net. When you are making
a huge change in your life that is considered controversial, the last thing
needed is some pubescent punk giving you smack.
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slynne
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response 115 of 160:
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Jan 12 18:07 UTC 2004 |
Heh. I can totally understand that. What is funny is that people were
so upset about the M-net agora conference being something that was
going on "behind their backs" while it is the more in your face
conversation disrupting stuff that bothers me more. I mean, if I were
to discuss something online here and someone wanted to make fun of me
about it. I would much prefer it if they did it out of the way where I
could choose not to have to deal with their Beevis and Butthead like
comments ;) "She said 'butt' huh huh huh huh" ;)
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jaklumen
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response 116 of 160:
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Jan 13 02:49 UTC 2004 |
Exactly-- it's why I chose to leave agora-- comments were starting to
get mean. It's one thing if people want to parody me-- and that *is*
parody. But when someone decided to make fun in what I thought was a
mean way of a time I was trying to get a job... and by the way, they
(the employer) decided to screw me over and not tell me about it (I
hate it when people can't be straight with me). So, it was time to
leave.
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jaklumen
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response 117 of 160:
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Jan 13 02:51 UTC 2004 |
That wasn't very clear. I was being made fun of in agora, to my
face. So... I left.
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slynne
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response 118 of 160:
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Jan 13 13:51 UTC 2004 |
That is exactly what I would do if I felt that the jokes were too mean.
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edina
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response 119 of 160:
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Jan 13 17:06 UTC 2004 |
I just filter what I post. I still want to play in the game, I just don't
want to wear a target on my back.
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slynne
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response 120 of 160:
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Jan 13 20:37 UTC 2004 |
Howard Dean "House Call"
It has been so long since I have really been social. I had forgotten
how much work it can be. It is a little frustrating too. My friends,
who used to go out looking for parties now seem to need to be dragged
to them. I am really missing the days when all you had to do was say
that there was a party on a certain night and folks would just show up.
Of course, those parties usually had really drunk people who broke
things while now things are a bit more tame at Casa Fremont.
I am having a Howard Dean "house call" thing on Saturday. I have
invited over 50 people so far. Only one person has confirmed that they
are coming. I have 6 strong maybes and about 3 weak ones. I'll be happy
if 6 people show up because I know that those 6 strong maybes can mean
that the folks wont show up if they are feeling tired or cranky or
whatever. Such is life, I suppose. :)
I have to say that just calling people has been good for me. I mean,
suddenly I have a reason to call folks I havent seen in a while.
Sometimes for several months. We end up talking and talking which is
good. There is a reason these folks are my friends. They are easy to
talk to. Most of them I have known since high school so we have a lot
of history. And then, small town gossip type stuff too.
In fact, I was kind of bumming because I called one friend of mine who
had some very interesting things going on. I had already called another
friend of mine just before that and while she had some news about
herself and some other folks, it wasnt nearly as filled with drama as
this other stuff which involved a psychotic ex girlfriend screaming in
my friend's front lawn. I know the first friend would have loved
hearing that story. Oh well, I guess that just means that if both of
them show up on Saturday, the friend with the crazy lady screaming in
her front lawn can tell the other friend all about it herself. First
hand accounts are better anyways. :)
http://lynne.tblog.com
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jaklumen
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response 121 of 160:
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Jan 14 09:32 UTC 2004 |
resp:119 What I had said about my job was fairly benign, so the joking
did seem mean-spirited. Not sure what there was to filter, so...
bye. It's one thing when I say something that I can see in hindsight
might look bad. I didn't see it in that instance.
resp:120 I hear so much about the Dean campaign that seems
encouraging... lots of grassroots work and such. I'm not fond of
Bush, but I don't think I could lean left enough to support him.
*shrug* Elections always give me a feeling of ambivalence... the
parties do play to their respective loyalties, left or right, and then
butter up to the middle. Clinton was supposedly moderate, but even
before his scandal, back before he got elected, he kinda scared me.
Anyway, political parties do seem to be retreating more to the left
and the right... and where I remain fiercely Independent and can seem
to dice myself anyway but moderate, it makes vote decisions hard.
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edina
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response 122 of 160:
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Jan 14 15:48 UTC 2004 |
Do you still vote, though?
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jaklumen
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response 123 of 160:
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Jan 15 08:57 UTC 2004 |
Sadly, I have not voted for a while. Apathy looms. Not a good
excuse, however-- I need to know the issues and vote on as much as I
can. Local stuff is easier, but again, anything that has a political
party stamped on it tends to give me that itchy feeling.
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edina
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response 124 of 160:
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Jan 15 16:00 UTC 2004 |
My personal philosophy is that if you don't vote, you dont' get to complain.
Dave doesn't vote - I don't recycle. I'm going to try and recycle, while I'd
like it if he votes, he doesn't complain and he doesn't give me smack about
it.
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slynne
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response 125 of 160:
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Jan 15 17:00 UTC 2004 |
Yeah. I get a little annoyed when someone gets upset about the results
of an election they didnt vote in. But, I have to admit that there have
been elections/primaries where I didnt care about the outcome so I
skipped voting.
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anderyn
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response 126 of 160:
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Jan 15 18:14 UTC 2004 |
I always vote. I do my best to educate myself about the issues, and I vote
in every election I am eligible to do it in. If we all did, maybe it would
be a better world.
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edina
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response 127 of 160:
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Jan 15 20:33 UTC 2004 |
Twila, you are so right you scare me. Let's take on the world and get rid
of the electoral college!
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slynne
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response 128 of 160:
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Jan 18 17:22 UTC 2004 |
I had to cancel my Howard Dean party. It started snowing in the morning
so a lot of people called to cancel. The roads were really bad when I
went to the store at 3 o'clock. But of course, as soon as I cancelled
the event, it stopped snowing and the plows came through and the roads
were fine. *DOH* Oh well. A couple of folks showed up anyways and we
had fun sitting around, drinking beers, and talking about why Howard
Dean is the candidate for us. It was fun.
When I went out to the store on Saturday, UPS delivered a package to my
house. It was an automatic kitty litter box!. The return address was
some company in Canada. There was no note or anything inside that
indicated who it was from. Weird. I think it was probably Aaron who
ordered it but he is out of town so I cant ask him. I have been talking
about getting one of these things with him. But I have been talking to
other friends too about my dislike for changing the litter. Heh. Well,
I am very happy with it and really thankful that I have a friend who is
thoughtful enough to send me something like this. I am going to get it
all set up tomorrow. Woo Hoo. No more cat box cleaning :)
Last Friday, I got to visit my friend Andee who just had a new baby.
Boy is he cute! It was really nice to visit her. She is awesome. We had
lunch and then we sat around and talked all afternoon. We played with
the baby although he doesnt really do much except lay on the floor and
look at stuff and smile sometimes. He sure needed a lot of attention
though. Whew. Maybe it is just as well that I dont have kids.
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slynne
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response 129 of 160:
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Jan 20 20:18 UTC 2004 |
Sometimes I have a little bit of writer's block. I hate that. It is
funny because sometimes I just feel like I want to run to my blog
(http://lynne.tblog.com) and write and write and then other
times...nothing. And then I ask myself, "Do I *really* have nothing to
say today? Really?"
Naturally, I usually have something I could say even when I dont have
anything I need to say. So? Here are just some thoughts in no
particular order of importance to me...
I was surprised that Kerry did so well in Iowa. I dont think Dean's
speech was as bad as the media is making it out to be. It certainly
hasnt changed my feelings about him as a candidate. I dont care a lot
for Kerry but I dont hate him or anything. I dont think he will get the
nomination. I was happy to see Edwards did so well. There is something
about him that I really like but I have not really been able to put my
finger on it. Maybe it is just that he seems nice. Naturally Dean is my
first choice for the nomination but I wont cry into my oatmeal if
Edwards gets it.
I have been watching a lot of foreign movies lately. I have been very
disappointed with the lack of movies from Russia. I have found that I
dont like most of the Soviet era ones and there just arent that many
more recent ones. I hope that changes. When it comes to foreign movies,
I like the French ones the best and the British ones the second best. I
dont know what that means.
Part of my job is to write techincal documents. Everyone on my team has
a yearly goal. Our fiscal year ends on the 31st and that is usually our
deadline for completing our goals. I am annoyed because on Friday, I
was sent an email informing me that the deadline for completing these
technical documents is Jan 21. It seems kind of smarmy to me to change
the deadline like that with only a few days notice. Oh well. I have
already turned in enough documents to meet my goal but not enough to
exceed it. I've exceeded every other goal I was given, though. I am
sure my review will be a good one and hopefully I will get a nice raise.
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