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zoe
THE END OF ME Mark Unseen   Apr 7 22:15 UTC 1999

this will be my last posting for a long while... i just can't do it 
anymore...

              THE END OF ME

this city;
so cold and heartless..

i'm trapped in this maze of disbelief and intolerance.
and this world spins-- 
and spins..
until i cannot see my hands;
until i cannot see what surrounds me...

i float down the alleys..
trying to grasp what they all seem to preach..
though there is nothing to hold on to--
no handle or knob i can pull to exit this.

i am torn from every direction..
scratching away at my feelings;
leaving my insides raw and bleeding..

then they reach out--
just to make it hurt;
just to watch me scream in pain...
this is all i am to you,
this is all you see..

flesh and blood eating away at my soul..
let me die before they take another peice,
before they endulge themselves in the last of me,
leaving me a bare skeleton of what once was myself...

i sit,
drowning in my tears of loss..
not of self pitty,
but who betrayed me in the end..
perhaps it was me--
perhaps it was my innocence that killed me..
or maybe it was you,
and all you put me through...


so long everyone.. maybe i'll check in every so often.. if i'm here..
     love
        ZOE
17 responses total.
zoe
response 1 of 17: Mark Unseen   Apr 7 22:17 UTC 1999

here you are.. not all, but some of what i needed to say.. to bad you 
weren't the ones i need to say it to... bye joe, love you
toking
response 2 of 17: Mark Unseen   Apr 7 23:50 UTC 1999

wait...whats this bye bit?
lumen
response 3 of 17: Mark Unseen   Apr 9 04:05 UTC 1999

What the hell?  Zoe, we love your poetry!  Out of the most bitter pain 
the most beautiful works of art can be created, both in the pit of 
despair and in the rapture of redemption and victory against the odds.
arianna
response 4 of 17: Mark Unseen   Apr 12 21:39 UTC 1999

this isn't the first time someone has made their goodbyes to poetry cf and
had people following them through it begging to know what's going on... and
it probably won't be the last...  tempermental artists. [;
bookworm
response 5 of 17: Mark Unseen   Apr 13 05:01 UTC 1999

<sigh>  I'm just a little bit upset.

I want to meet her when Jon and I come to visit this summer.
zoe
response 6 of 17: Mark Unseen   Apr 14 01:18 UTC 1999

if its ever possible to meet ANYONE on grex, especially you, i'd steal 
a car and drive my ass all the way to where ever you are to acomplish 
it...
i'll be back on grex eventually.. 
lumen
response 7 of 17: Mark Unseen   Apr 14 02:46 UTC 1999

*shrug* not from around A2?

We are coming..
zoe
response 8 of 17: Mark Unseen   Apr 14 19:48 UTC 1999

A2????? whats that???
toking
response 9 of 17: Mark Unseen   Apr 14 20:00 UTC 1999

A2=Ann Arbor

Iwonder if I turned off html text formating....
A<SUP>2</SUP>
toking
response 10 of 17: Mark Unseen   Apr 14 20:01 UTC 1999

apparently so
brighn
response 11 of 17: Mark Unseen   Apr 15 01:57 UTC 1999

This one I liked.

As far aswhat arianna said, what on earth are you talking about? Nobody's ever
gone and then returned. ;}
toking
response 12 of 17: Mark Unseen   Apr 15 12:32 UTC 1999

that's right...nobody <tee-hee>
arianna
response 13 of 17: Mark Unseen   Apr 22 22:31 UTC 1999

hmm.... are you being silly again?...  the people that jump to mind when I
think of people that've left cf are selena.  and peacefrg (though he didn't
really leave by choice, from what I understand).  and jenna (who might be
still reading the cf for all I know).  did you leave at one point, brighn?..
brighn
response 14 of 17: Mark Unseen   Apr 23 23:49 UTC 1999

I left, Jenna returned at least once after "leaving" (though she's gone now),
toking left at some point, Vampyre returned after "leaving" (then left again),
Melly/Morgayn did the same. Others as well, I'm sure, less publicly.
bookworm
response 15 of 17: Mark Unseen   Apr 23 23:52 UTC 1999

Sorry.  Guess I *am* being a little silly.
zoe
response 16 of 17: Mark Unseen   May 3 19:16 UTC 1999

ooh... bookworm.. i'm trying my best to be here when you go to ann 
arbor... so don't you DARE back out of it all at the last second!!!!
bookworm
response 17 of 17: Mark Unseen   May 5 00:44 UTC 1999

Honey, you couldn't stop me with a tornado.
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