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zoe
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valentines hell
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Feb 10 21:05 UTC 1999 |
i detest this.
absorbing life--
(for all its worth)
processing the pain,
just fall silent into the shadows...
eaten away by the stress of society,
now engulped by the bare bones of the earth..
nothing to show for yourself but a large stone and a few wilting
flowers from days gone by..
solitude and rejection just push--
and push
and push...
UNTIL ITS ALL TO MUCH...
UNTIL YOU GIVE INTO THE PRESSURE EXERTED...
UNTIL YOU LOOSE IT ALL AND LET THEM CRY IN AWE THAT THEY COULD PUSH
YOU THAT FAR.
leaving me red-eyed and alone...
so much pain,
a cut that never stopped bleeding.
five years...
five years to this day since i saw you for the last time.
its all my fault--
the more i attempted to make you feel better,
the deeper the blade sunk into your heart.
let me put away the past...
why do you haunt me so..
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| 25 responses total. |
zoe
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response 1 of 25:
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Feb 10 21:10 UTC 1999 |
pain... pain is our newfound friend..
i usually write of things that happen to me, spiritually or physically.
this is no exception...
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zoe
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response 2 of 25:
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Feb 11 00:25 UTC 1999 |
joe... ENGUPLED ENGUPLED ENGUPLED ENGUPLED ENGUPLED ENGUPLED!!!! take
that you feindish profectionsist.. if it wasn't a word, i don't think
i'd use it!!!
besides.. i'm just a little girly-girl.. i romp through the kiddie
section of barns n nobles.. i can write my own english if i do so feel
like it..
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lumen
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response 3 of 25:
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Feb 11 06:57 UTC 1999 |
I like the word-- has different meanings than 'engulfed'.
Zowie, zoe, how do you manage to write such disturbing stuff? I haven't been
near this angsty in years.
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toking
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response 4 of 25:
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Feb 11 11:44 UTC 1999 |
resp:2 have it yer way then, I'll just chock it up next to "brunsert"
O / O
/_
\____/
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zoe
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response 5 of 25:
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Feb 11 21:58 UTC 1999 |
people tell me its my age.. besides.. i feel as though if i face pain,
i won't live in my head off of lies and pointless smiles.. i guess i'm
just not a colorful person...
i like brunsert.. you have to admit thats a good one..
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lumen
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response 6 of 25:
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Feb 12 19:49 UTC 1999 |
Why..? how old are you, zoe?
I would suppose there is a difference in seeing things as they are and
things as they can be. The latter is often an inspiration for change.
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zoe
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response 7 of 25:
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Feb 15 17:05 UTC 1999 |
how old do you think i am??? i don't know if i told anyone if they'd
beleive me... i know joe still has trouble.
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toking
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response 8 of 25:
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Feb 17 19:36 UTC 1999 |
(linked to the new poetry conf)
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lumen
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response 9 of 25:
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Feb 18 00:29 UTC 1999 |
I don't guess people's ages in cyberspace, Zoe-- there is too little
evidence of age here besides stereotypes. I'm frequently surprised at
what I find. I wouldn't know, because my guess could be totally off.
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zoe
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response 10 of 25:
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Feb 19 02:25 UTC 1999 |
lets just say that i'm far <extremely far> from my death bed and most
people my age lack feeling, a realistic approach, and complete mind...
thats rather obvious...
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bookworm
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response 11 of 25:
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Feb 22 07:37 UTC 1999 |
teens or twenties, right?
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brighn
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response 12 of 25:
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Feb 22 17:38 UTC 1999 |
I'd say 13or 14, myself.
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zoe
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response 13 of 25:
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Feb 22 19:54 UTC 1999 |
gee thanks brighn... perhaps its my lack of maturity...
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logansan
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response 14 of 25:
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Feb 22 20:32 UTC 1999 |
.... bare bones of the earth .... Zoe (if I may be so familiar, no
offense intented), but really you'r going to have to write something that I
dont like .... MAy I put up a shrine to your works :)
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lumen
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response 15 of 25:
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Feb 22 22:56 UTC 1999 |
Aww, just tell us how old you are..I won't hold it against you.
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cloud
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response 16 of 25:
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Feb 23 02:39 UTC 1999 |
you might as well. They probably won't stop pestering untill you do.
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brighn
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response 17 of 25:
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Feb 23 04:23 UTC 1999 |
maybe I should just shut up =}
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bookworm
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response 18 of 25:
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Feb 23 05:23 UTC 1999 |
I know how old she is...
Old enough.
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zoe
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response 19 of 25:
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Feb 23 20:02 UTC 1999 |
what julie said...
response to 14:
all i do is put myself to paper.. i'll try though..
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lumen
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response 20 of 25:
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Feb 24 00:22 UTC 1999 |
oh, come on. I like my perceptions to be changed. I'm quite curious,
but it's your prerogative.
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zoe
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response 21 of 25:
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Feb 24 22:49 UTC 1999 |
spiritually, i've been here atleast since the druids.. if not a little
before..
physically... well.. i'm much younger...
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bookworm
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response 22 of 25:
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Feb 26 05:27 UTC 1999 |
What's wrong with you people?
Don't you know it's impolite to ask a lady how old she is?
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brighn
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response 23 of 25:
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Feb 26 16:17 UTC 1999 |
It's not impolite when they bring the topic up... zoe said, "people tell me
its [that is, her ability to write angst] my age." I think it's fair to ask
what her age is, given that statement.
It's impolite to keep pressing the issue when somebody has declind to answer
a question, though, which she's done, so can we all move along now?
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bookworm
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response 24 of 25:
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Feb 26 21:52 UTC 1999 |
Right!
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