response 68 of 170:

Jan 8 19:48 UTC 2004

I haven't left yet. I'm waiting to get my items removed. Or till some 
consensus comes up about it.

Twila, I came here to make friends. And then when that happened, I 
realised I really liked Grex, till I started really getting into the 
whole policy and getting involved in coop. I think it's then I 
realised that it's pretty cliquey. I tried to work past that. I may 
have succeeded somewhat. But I think gelinas' comment drove the point. 
Maybe, grexers see it is as annoying. I haven't seen many people 
willing to do anything. Nearly every idea that comes up is either 
ignored, or criticised without giving it a chance. And god forbid you 
ever question policy or why it works for some people and not others. I 
will admit, that it's a little sad, but I'll live. And I don't expect 
to make a huge dent when I leave anyways.

I realise I could still participate in grex, and forget coop. But 
that's not something I think I'm able to do. I can do that on mnet, 
but it didn't work too well on grex, and I don't expect it will. I 
just want to make a clean break.

Do I apologise for being a parodier. No. I'm sorry that feelings were 
hurt. I would still parody someone if I got the oppurtunity, though I 
don't think I'm very good at it. I see my flaws, and heck I've 
parodied them too. And I've been parodied. I happened to stumble 
across a parody on me, and I didn't have the knee-jerk reaction that 
Valerie had. I thought it was pretty funny. (I don't remember what it 
was exactly, but I remember thinking - wow! that's pretty much on mark)

And Jan, I know it's not worth much. And I guess this is more 
devastating to Valerie especially in light of people who never 
normally posted showing up in her diary. Speaking for myself, I was 
really interested in her diary. I didn't agree with some things she 
said, but I liked reading about the kids and other people's kids. I 
guess I'm saying that Valerie's Baby Diary wasn't just a source of 
material for me. (And I found it long before I found mnet's agora)