| Grex > Glb > #56: I'm out, I'm Gay and transgendered. Free at last! |
| I'm out, I'm Gay and transgendered. Free at last! | 
Jul 11 22:21 UTC 2000 |
In the last few days I've been going through sort of a metamorphosis.
I have discovered that I an not bisexual. I am gay. I was kidding myself when
I thought that I was bi, because it wasn't the honest truth. It's not like
I don't like looking or being in the company of women, I just can't imagine
myself ever being sexual with a woman.
I'm also more confident about my dressing. I've been wearing my bras
everyday, complete with the breast forms. I'm not ashamed anymore. It is mine
and I will be proud of this. I've been hanging out on PlanetOut but I'd like
to find some ftf support so I don't feel so alone.
I'm happy that I've been able to do this. I feel free. I've been coming
out to a lot of people in the last few days and it's been like a weight has
been lifted from my shoulders.
| response 1 of 24: |
Jul 12 17:14 UTC 2000 |
Wow.
| response 2 of 24: |
Jul 12 17:46 UTC 2000 |
Wow indeed, and congrats.
| response 3 of 24: |
Jul 13 10:10 UTC 2000 |
Thanks.
I did something rather bold tonight, and completly unlike the old
me. First, I got rid of the mustasche. We won't be doing that ever
again. I think it makes me look stupid and it's easy to ignore your
personal hygiene as well. At least I'll need to shave everyday to
keep it off.
The really bold thing I did was venture out to a honest to goodness
gay bar complete with lingerie and enhancers. I was scared at first, but I
noticed that everyone there was having fun and was just the same as me. I had a
coke, and played some pool and made a few friends. The one thing I didn't do
was get drunk. I am proud of the fact that I can still walk into a bar and not
drink or get drunk. 1 coke is my limit with the diabetes and all, so I switched
to H20 which was OK with the bartender.
I'm really growing and I see myself really sprouting. Of course
I'm going to be careful.
| response 4 of 24: |
Jul 15 21:42 UTC 2000 |
Omni, do you think that you feel freer to express the true you because you are now living alone, and can dress and act the way you want there? Does anyone happen to know the dictionary spelling(s) of 'mustasche' (in English)? Seems like something you ought not to have if you cannot spell it (I tried a few different ways and they all looked wrong - mustachio?).
| response 5 of 24: |
Jul 16 06:15 UTC 2000 |
"Mustache" is how I spell it, but it's one of the words that I'm never sure I'm spelling right. I don't use it often enough to worry about it.... Webster's says "mustache" or "moustache."
| response 6 of 24: |
Jul 16 06:27 UTC 2000 |
I always say "Moustache".
| response 7 of 24: |
Jul 17 02:26 UTC 2000 |
re 3- Yup. I didn't want to come all the way out when Mom was here
because even though she might have been aware of it, I think it was
better to let her think I might be then to confirm her worst fears. Now
that she is gone, I have to live my life in the manner I see fit, and
to tell the truth, I have to be who I am, and be true to my feelings. I
cannot live for others anymore. Sooner or later this had to come, and
I'm glad in a way it came now.
I posted my transgendered page just today and I'd like you guys to
look at it and tell me what you think. I really care what you *DO*
think about it.
The url is http://www.cyberspace.org/~omni/warning.htm
Let me know what you think, please.
| response 8 of 24: |
Jul 17 13:29 UTC 2000 |
I read the page and it is, as usual, beautifully written. Omni, why do you think you are transgendered rather than gay with a fetish for women's underwear? Do biological women get turned on by lacy underwear? (Is biological woman the correct term? Genetic women?)
| response 9 of 24: |
Jul 17 14:11 UTC 2000 |
Do you mean do we get turned on looking at it or wearing it? It's all personal preference. Some guys like lacy underwear on a girl, and some don't. Some girls like wearing it because it makes them feel sexy, and some don't. The same can be said for satin, silk, cotton, etc, and then you figure in the cut and style... It goes on. =)
| response 10 of 24: |
Jul 17 19:15 UTC 2000 |
Gypsi is right. It's never been about the underwear or the clothes. They just help the look as it were. Men have one choice, or had one choice, while women have millions of options, and that can be seductive. I feel something deep down. I've always been more feminine than masculine. I could go on but I have to do some other things today. ;) Glad you liked my new page.
| response 11 of 24: |
Jul 17 19:51 UTC 2000 |
Men now have lots of choices. Boxers, briefs, boxer/brief things, thongs, bikini, etc. Satin, silk, cotton, flannel, etc.
| response 12 of 24: |
Jul 17 22:25 UTC 2000 |
I'd suppose it depends on the size, too. Men's undergarments tend to
only get variety around the smaller sizes - there's much more variation for
women.
Now explain to me this though - I went shopping with someone who was
a size *3* and she *still* couldn't fit into some of the dresses they had for
sale. And she was a fairly twiggy 3.
| response 13 of 24: |
Jul 19 15:17 UTC 2000 |
Maybe they are all designed to be too tight, as part of the new look?
| response 14 of 24: |
Jul 19 15:41 UTC 2000 |
There's definitely some waifishness in the media, which is fine with
me, as it's not what I prefer.
| response 15 of 24: |
Jul 19 20:44 UTC 2000 |
#12> I disagree. Sexy underthings in general are sized for smaller people.
| response 16 of 24: |
Jul 19 22:08 UTC 2000 |
You just have to know where to shop. Vicki's Secret goes up to an 18, and Lane Bryant goes up to 26/28.
| response 17 of 24: |
Jul 20 02:42 UTC 2000 |
This thing has me in a swirl about sizes. Everything is different.
Shoes, bras, panties, pants, all have different sizes.
It's enough to make you dizzy.
| response 18 of 24: |
Jul 20 02:56 UTC 2000 |
It's, uh, the world's little way of testing your dedication. Anyone who isn't _really_ transgendered, there's gonna come a point when they say "the hell with it, gimme something I know I'll fit into." Or something....
| response 19 of 24: |
Jul 20 03:39 UTC 2000 |
Don't men's shoes and underwear also come in different sizes, or can you get underpants in size 10 1/2 EE and slacks in 15 1/2 32/33? Men are, by the way, not the only ones who have trouble finding women's clothes that fit.
| response 20 of 24: |
Jul 20 05:54 UTC 2000 |
Lane Bryant's gotten better over time. Size 18 is still a ways from "full-figured" though (in reference to Vicki's Secret).
| response 21 of 24: |
Jul 20 12:36 UTC 2000 |
Well, yeah, but it's Vicki's Secret. <snort> Omni - get used to it. My size varies depending on the brand. The only size that stays consistent no matter what brand or style is my shoe size. Seriously - I have three different sizes in my closet right now that all fit. I've been trying to gradually go toward one brand (Venezia - carried at Lane Bryant) since it's cut so well and my size stays fairly consistent. You may want to check out their selection. I've never bought underwear there, and I'm not one to shop for sexy lingerie since it makes me feel stupid, but I will advise that their bras *suck*. Vicki's Secret's bras last forever and ever, but they only go up to a ribcage measurement of 38.
| response 22 of 24: |
Jul 20 14:41 UTC 2000 |
Never bought Doc Martens have ya? :) <-sarcastic shoe size comment
| response 23 of 24: |
Jul 20 15:17 UTC 2000 |
Ooh...good point. I used to wear Docs (shoes and boots) regularly when I was 17-19. Of course, years of living up north conditioned me to buy boots a half-size larger in order to accomodate two or three pairs of socks. ;-) I've just recently gotten used to buying them in my size again.
| response 24 of 24: |
Jul 28 15:33 UTC 2000 |
I'd have to say the sizing of men's pants is on teh mark ( assuming they are correctly sized) take a tape measure around da middle and up your leg and *POOF* there ya go.. now i still haven't a clue what shos use or even why shoes are different... oi